welsh hills again

 I started blogging in 2007.  What a different world, a different life.  I was fifty three, still working in a demanding job which took me away from our beautiful ancient house, high on a Welsh hillside.  I had one two year old grandson.  I loved my job but my life felt very fragmented, split between London and Wales, between professional me and personal me.  Both my parents were alive.  My active, funny brother had yet to have the stroke which for twelve years until his death confined him to a wheelchair and robbed him of much of his dry, witty personality.   And now?  Now I am seventy and have been retired for years.  My mother died in 2013, my father in law in 2014, my father in 2015 and my brother last year.  We now have ten grandchildren, ranging in age from six to eighteen.  There have been departures and arrivals.  In the intervening years we have bought a building plot, sold our old house and built a new one w...

I always used to hate November: greyness, wetness, short days and dank, dark nights.  It felt to me as if the world turned inward and the light left the sky and as the days darkened my energy dropped and so did my mood.  When did my feelings change?  I am not sure.  My mother died in November and my father two years later in December.  I think that these losses combined with my own growing sense of how fast time runs away with you have shifted me towards wanting to make the very most of each day.  I can't afford to discount three or four months of the year.  How many more years are there?  I have no idea but I should make my days count. And lo and behold! It is possible to change the patterns of a lifetime!  It is possible to find things to love in November and to be energised and excited, just as much as in Spring.  Over the last few years I have found lots of ways to feel good in November and for me that seems to require some particula...

I haven't blogged since March!  That's terrible.  No excuse and every excuse:  packing and moving and getting out of the rental house and into the new one.  I probably could and should have blogged but I didn't so here I am now.  We are here.  We are in.   The sitting room is calm and peaceful with our books on the shelves and our cushions on the chairs. The view across the field is almost as lovely as the one up to the hills. The amount of the glass still surprises me after so many years of our seventeenth century farmhouse, built for shelter, not for light.  I love the cladding too against the white render.  It feels like a house which belongs here even though it is yet to have a garden. I have got to know the sheltered sunny places to take a cup of tea and dream about the garden we will create. There are still things to do and in a couple of weeks the green roof will arrive for outside the guest bedroom and over the front porch. ...

 So much more to show you on the house.  Loving the cladding and the contrast with the render and now that the scaffolding has come down it is possible to see the design of the house more clearly. Loving the tiled floor downstairs and the colour of the kitchen and dining room. Loving the front door and the gorgeous curve in the hall. Loving the internal doors and the handles. Loving the wood flooring upstairs Loving the bathroom tiles,  These are in the en suite bathroom.   It looks nearly done in these photos and in truth there is still a lot to do.  We have no stairs yet so going up the ladder has become almost, but not quite, commonplace.  We have no water although that is coming soon.  There is much to do in the bathrooms, second fix electrics and lots and lots outside. The kitchen is just beginning to be fitted.  That will make a huge difference.  In the sitting room all the drawers and cupboards are lined up ready for the carcasses...

 A year - a long time and no time at all.  This last strange year has often felt stalled, coming round again and again, living in the groundhog day of lockdowns and restrictions but when I lift my head and really look at it I can see what a lot has changed and how far we have come. This time last year we were living in our old house on the hill, waiting to exchange contracts on our sale, surrounded with boxes of books and china. And exactly a year ago today it had snowed.  We walked up to the top of the hills and tried out our snow shoes and were amazed by how beautiful the white world was. And then in February we moved.  It was sort of a wrench to leave the lovely old house and it sort of wasn't.  The fact that the new house was beginning to emerge from the mudbath of the building plot was so interesting and so exciting that it felt right.  It felt time to move on and shape the new stage of life and we knew that in our old house's new owner, we were leavin...